Illuminate My Path

my Loc journey thus far

cloudn9ne101 — Sun, 09 Oct 2011 20:20:44 +0000

Maaan it has only been a month and a few days and I’m already anticipating my hair locing together entirely! I cant wait!!!!

Twist-out Withdrawals!!!!

cloudn9ne101 — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 20:13:06 +0000

To loc my hair or not to loc my hair!!!! That is the question!!!!!

I loooove twisting my hair and then I think I want to start Locing it up and 2-3 weeks in I begin having twist out withdrawals or the urge to do an awesome blowout!!!! Part of me believes that once I make the commitment everything will fall into place and the other part of me thinks I’ll get down and then wish I wouldn’t have done it!!! I’m sooo torn between the two!!!!

Why Lie?!

cloudn9ne101 — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 07:11:31 +0000

Okay so real quick I have to ask this question because it is killing me at this very moment!!! So bad that I could scream [okay maybe not that bad buuut it's close]

I want to know why do people lie about the most trivial things. Like I just don’t get it!! And the crazii thing is I know a few [4] people that, well basically it comes so natural to them. I honestly believe it happens so easily to the point where they don’t even realize when they’re doing it! I don’t judge any one and I am on this road to not speaking on others all the time specially because it is not my place to call anyone out on their business.

Being someone’s friend doesn’t entitle you to “tell them about them self” specially if they don’t ask your opinion. This right here is a big deal for me because I use to feel like “well I’m their friend and as a friend I am suppose to keep it strictly 100 with them” Yes! This is true, however, that doesn’t give me the right to just be rude and speak on how I feel about any of their actions. At any rate I am honest with everyone and myself and if/when asked my opinion I will give it, if something is happening and I believe I should speak up I will, but my main focus isn’t to speak on how I disagree with their actions [if ya catch my drift].

Now I just had to express these feelings because it hurts my heart for someone to be so outside of reality that they are not honest with them self and/or others. Particularly to the degree that they can’t distinguish the two. Now I’ve asked them “what’s the point in lying?!” And their response “oh I don’t know, I didn’t even realize, or I don’t know I just did” and those reasons alone well they hold no purpose. Soooo why not stop?!?!?! That is all…I just really don’t get it!!!!! Maybe it ain’t for me to understand and now at this point I’m not completely okay with just saying OKAY.

- Peace & Blessings

I Just Wanna Dance.

cloudn9ne101 — Sat, 21 Aug 2010 18:19:56 +0000

A while back I was going on how I love to dance and how I was going to start taking classes again. Needless to say that day I went I never went back!!! Yes, I got in the way of my own dreams. I didn’t realize how out of tune I was with my “self”. Not to mention how horribly bad I felt the next morning. Well this past week I signed up for a class at school. I am determined and ready to jump back in. I was always at one of my happiest stages in life when I was dancing and I miss that feeling. Class started Tuesday and let’s just say Thursday was when it really hit!!!! At this very moment I’m resisting the pain. I don’t wanna think about it. The whole time I was thinking, “this woman has got to be out of her damn mind!!!!” After class I felt great it the next morning when I felt like crap. 3hrs of stretching, ab work, testing our upper body strength [which I have none of], and doing moves that at that moment seemed ridiculous. I mean she had has jumping and doing cartwheels across the room [idk when's the last time I did a cart-wheel] I mean I’ve gone to the gym a lot this summer but obviously not enough and 2 1/2 years of no workout of any sort is really a long time. I have a lot of work to do.

Anyway I wanna do small vids of this process. Since I can not take the cam in class I will be doing this at home each week afterwards. I have set some goals for myself this month [well September] and I’ll do that each month. I’m looking forward to this journey ahead!!!! That is all. Back to your regular scheduled programming =)

[Now Playing: BaBobBye Ya * Janelle Monae]

- Peace & Blessings

the search for planet Luvatron 5

cloudn9ne101 — Sat, 21 Aug 2010 17:19:16 +0000

So last nite while going through my tweets that I favorite during the week I finally got to listen in on this album by Black King Soul and CyberSEXtuplet [@Blackkingsoul] For starters the beats alone sent me off!!!! Some of it is very melodramatic [which I love]. I mean they are just extraordinary!!! I love them! Tuned out the minute I got to track 2. I have a few favs already but the whole album is worth the zone out. I don’t wanna paint this crazii picture…so here’s a preview of one of the tracks. Please do your ears the favor of indulging them. You will not be let down.

- I ♥ Music

My trip to the Library

cloudn9ne101 — Mon, 09 Aug 2010 22:17:33 +0000

Howdie Doodie!

So this morning when I woke up I had this overwhelming feeling. I felt physically and mentally drained. Like just completely out of my element. I am certain that he had to do a lot with my actions this past weekend and with a lot of people around fighting their own internal battles I could feel myself absorbing all that not so positive energy. With that said I sang my heart out on the freeway to some tunes on my ipod aka my bestfriend everrrrr!! Annnd my sister and I headed to the library.

Okay I ♥ the smell of library books. I don’t know what it is exactly or if I’m the only one but there’s something about that old library bookshelf smell that the books hold. Anyhoo I absolutely positively enjoy going to the library. I mean the plethora of information available at your fingertips is ridiculous and I love it!!! My experience is never the same. NEVER. I always tend to go to a different section. It all depends on my mood and at that moment. Today I walked over to the travel section. [seriously I wanna get away] I ended up walking away and checking out two books. [big ass heavy books if I do say so myself]

Wonders of the World: Masterpieces of the Architecture From 4000 BC to the Present - Alessandra Capodiferro

The Grand Tour: Splendor of the Gods – Flavio Conti

Can I just say that it is just exactly what I needed. They’re wonderful. Now I’ve always been into architecture though. Anyways that visit was great and I’m so happy that I went. Yupp Yupp. I mean I dont know who doesn’t enjoy reading or opening up a good book. Like seriously it’s pretty much mandatory that the man I’m with love to read. I want someone to read to me at times [not all the time] it’s pretty much required in the relationship.

Today’s affirmation: My imagination is the leap off point for unlimited possibilities to express

-Om Shanti

the creative mind

cloudn9ne101 — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 03:05:03 +0000

Soooo my chica shared this a few days ago and I totally felt compelled to do the same! I love it and I could not have said it any better. It’s about the source of creativity. Enjoy

The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this: a human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive. To him a touch is a blow, a sound is a noise, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, a lover is a god, and failure is death. Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create- so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning, his very breath is cut off from him. He must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency, he is not really alive unless he is creating.

[It was written by Pearl Buck, a novelist and Nobel Prize recipient.]

Peace & Blessings