my Loc journey thus far
Maaan it has only been a month and a few days and I’m already anticipating my hair locing together entirely! I cant wait!!!!
Twist-out Withdrawals!!!!
To loc my hair or not to loc my hair!!!! That is the question!!!!!
I loooove twisting my hair and then I think I want to start Locing it up and 2-3 weeks in I begin having twist out withdrawals or the urge to do an awesome blowout!!!! Part of me believes that once I make the commitment everything will fall into place and the other part of me thinks I’ll get down and then wish I wouldn’t have done it!!! I’m sooo torn between the two!!!!
Why Lie?!
Okay so real quick I have to ask this question because it is killing me at this very moment!!! So bad that I could scream [okay maybe not that bad buuut it's close]
I want to know why do people lie about the most trivial things. Like I just don’t get it!! And the crazii thing is I know a few [4] people that, well basically it comes so natural to them. I honestly believe it happens so easily to the point where they don’t even realize when they’re doing it! I don’t judge any one and I am on this road to not speaking on others all the time specially because it is not my place to call anyone out on their business.
Being someone’s friend doesn’t entitle you to “tell them about them self” specially if they don’t ask your opinion. This right here is a big deal for me because I use to feel like “well I’m their friend and as a friend I am suppose to keep it strictly 100 with them” Yes! This is true, however, that doesn’t give me the right to just be rude and speak on how I feel about any of their actions. At any rate I am honest with everyone and myself and if/when asked my opinion I will give it, if something is happening and I believe I should speak up I will, but my main focus isn’t to speak on how I disagree with their actions [if ya catch my drift].
Now I just had to express these feelings because it hurts my heart for someone to be so outside of reality that they are not honest with them self and/or others. Particularly to the degree that they can’t distinguish the two. Now I’ve asked them “what’s the point in lying?!” And their response “oh I don’t know, I didn’t even realize, or I don’t know I just did” and those reasons alone well they hold no purpose. Soooo why not stop?!?!?! That is all…I just really don’t get it!!!!! Maybe it ain’t for me to understand and now at this point I’m not completely okay with just saying OKAY.
- Peace & Blessings
I Just Wanna Dance.
A while back I was going on how I love to dance and how I was going to start taking classes again. Needless to say that day I went I never went back!!! Yes, I got in the way of my own dreams. I didn’t realize how out of tune I was with my “self”. Not to mention how horribly bad I felt the next morning. Well this past week I signed up for a class at school. I am determined and ready to jump back in. I was always at one of my happiest stages in life when I was dancing and I miss that feeling. Class started Tuesday and let’s just say Thursday was when it really hit!!!! At this very moment I’m resisting the pain. I don’t wanna think about it. The whole time I was thinking, “this woman has got to be out of her damn mind!!!!” After class I felt great it the next morning when I felt like crap. 3hrs of stretching, ab work, testing our upper body strength [which I have none of], and doing moves that at that moment seemed ridiculous. I mean she had has jumping and doing cartwheels across the room [idk when's the last time I did a cart-wheel] I mean I’ve gone to the gym a lot this summer but obviously not enough and 2 1/2 years of no workout of any sort is really a long time. I have a lot of work to do.
Anyway I wanna do small vids of this process. Since I can not take the cam in class I will be doing this at home each week afterwards. I have set some goals for myself this month [well September] and I’ll do that each month. I’m looking forward to this journey ahead!!!! That is all. Back to your regular scheduled programming =)
[Now Playing: BaBobBye Ya * Janelle Monae]
- Peace & Blessings
the search for planet Luvatron 5
My trip to the Library
Howdie Doodie!
So this morning when I woke up I had this overwhelming feeling. I felt physically and mentally drained. Like just completely out of my element. I am certain that he had to do a lot with my actions this past weekend and with a lot of people around fighting their own internal battles I could feel myself absorbing all that not so positive energy. With that said I sang my heart out on the freeway to some tunes on my ipod aka my bestfriend everrrrr!! Annnd my sister and I headed to the library.
Okay I ♥ the smell of library books. I don’t know what it is exactly or if I’m the only one but there’s something about that old library bookshelf smell that the books hold. Anyhoo I absolutely positively enjoy going to the library. I mean the plethora of information available at your fingertips is ridiculous and I love it!!! My experience is never the same. NEVER. I always tend to go to a different section. It all depends on my mood and at that moment. Today I walked over to the travel section. [seriously I wanna get away] I ended up walking away and checking out two books. [big ass heavy books if I do say so myself]
- Wonders of the World: Masterpieces of the Architecture From 4000 BC to the Present - Alessandra Capodiferro
- The Grand Tour: Splendor of the Gods – Flavio Conti
Can I just say that it is just exactly what I needed. They’re wonderful. Now I’ve always been into architecture though. Anyways that visit was great and I’m so happy that I went. Yupp Yupp. I mean I dont know who doesn’t enjoy reading or opening up a good book. Like seriously it’s pretty much mandatory that the man I’m with love to read. I want someone to read to me at times [not all the time] it’s pretty much required in the relationship.
Today’s affirmation: My imagination is the leap off point for unlimited possibilities to express
-Om Shanti
the creative mind
Soooo my chica shared this a few days ago and I totally felt compelled to do the same! I love it and I could not have said it any better. It’s about the source of creativity. Enjoy
The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this: a human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive. To him a touch is a blow, a sound is a noise, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, a lover is a god, and failure is death. Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create- so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning, his very breath is cut off from him. He must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency, he is not really alive unless he is creating.
[It was written by Pearl Buck, a novelist and Nobel Prize recipient.]
Peace & Blessings
Shorty Swing My Way….
Okay so that title has nothing to do with what I have to say. I was just chillin listening to some music and that song came on. It’s one of those jams that I will always enjoy rockin to. Anyhoo this past weekend was very delightful. So many details buuut I kinda don’t feel like rambling right now. So yesterday [sunday] I wore my hair in a fro-hawk of some sort annnd it came out soo lovely!!! Can I mention how in love I am with my hair lately. It’s been a wonderful phase of transitioning for me. Physically, Mentally, and Spiritually I am changing and I love it.
I haven’t the slightest idea where I’m headed, yet I am totally okay with that because I am focused. God is my leader and protector and I find my comfort and peace of mind in Him. Here are some pics of my hair from this weekend.
-Om Shanti
My Ink and Pen
[something old but I love it. Enjoy]
My bloodstream blends with the ink from the pens
they flow together like the River Thames through the ruff ends
it’s something I can always depend on like a best friend.
When I was drowning in failure it pulled me out of the deep end
and helps me to create the messages I need to send.
If the ink clogs up I just shake the pen and restart my rhymes
I could put a corkscrew in your ear rotate it anti-clockwise 13 times
but your mind still wouldnt be as twisted as mine
I was always a feeble person with the confidence I lacked
searching for the right track was like a needle in a haystack
and I used to search for revenge its the essence of payback
I couldnt depend on anyone so I gave up and layed back
thinkin on my memories for days, some were good but some hurt
gettin rid of the painful ones was a job for Southern Comfort
That time i was late for my english exam unprepared and unaware
messing up with all my words because I smoked a blunt first
I started gettin dizzy and I tired I just wasn’t able
to answer questions in a test when I couldn’t care less
So I just screwed up my paper and wrote lyrics on the table
like old school Pac everywhere I go is the same song
there’s a war goin on outside no man is safe from
everyones dead wrong
Even when I’m long gone I’ll never forget where there I came from.
-Om Shanti
